Hey beautiful. Her name is Dorcas and firstly she would like to thank you for being here and hope you had a great day. But if you didnt, please do not feel as if your life is horrible because sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together. Have a pleasant week ahead.

Dorcas is what she likes to say just your average teenager. She preferred to stay inside, cuddled under a blanket and watching a movie. She finds joy not only in writing, but also in snapping pictures, especially things about her life, because to her, it serves as reminiscences and they're the only things that could remind her about her life. She loves travelling, and has a dream to visit the entire world in the future with the guy of her life. She has a thing for pancakes, waffles and icecream, and could indulge in them without getting sick and tired of it.

The eighteen year old was born into a middle class family of four with rather high expectations; they werent as filthy rich as the other families but her parents made enough money to cover all of the family’s expenses, and she was disciplined and brought up with a rather strict etiquette.

The person her parents wanted her to be wasnt like her at all but at least by being that person, she was no longer criticised as much. In front of people, Dorcas suffers in silence. She smiles despite how shitty things are, and would always put her friends before her. She's always there, and would always leave her phone on at night, just in case someone needs her. Perhaps it's because she loves everyone else more than she could ever love herself, or perhaps she just feels that someday, these people will be back there for her whenever she needs them.

Even the happiest person has a shadow when the sun goes down. See that sweet and sickeningly optimistic girl walking around town claiming to be Dorcas? Dont believe her, because that’s not her. Metaphorically, of course. Behind closed doors, she tears down her supposingly fake mask and is who she really is. She's a teenager who isnt as strong as all of you think she is. When she was 14, she is obsessed with something what most people think is attention seeking, self harming. It turned into a daily routine because somehow she feels that feeling pain physically was so much better than emotionally.

Things did get better after a year, when she found someone she thought would stay in her entire life and literally gave him her everything. Although she's entirely wrong, she learnt how to be stronger and definitely more independent after experiencing betrayals and cheatings from that guy she really loved. Not once, not twice, but thrice. Suicidal thoughts and plans did came across in her mind, the only step left was the action. It was thanks to her true friends which stopped her from doing so. Despite finally managing to step out from that haunting memory after a year, they still leave a deep scar to her.

Honestly, the reason why she's penning down her life story is not for attention purposes, but to let beautiful people out there to believe there's faith and continue going on, despite whatever reasons you have that's bringing you down.

Eighteen years have passed and she's still here, struggling with her own life, trying to fix the mess she is. She's stronger now, and never gave up on herself ever since, no matter how horrible things might end up to be. But still, at the end of the day, she secretly hopes that there is more of a world out there for her, whether that comes in the size of a person or a place.

Sincerely, she thanks you if you read the entire chunk of lengthy words, and hopes you will continue believing in yourself and stay beautiful.

(Even the rainbow comes after the rain, so stay positive. Be strong. Dont give up, or resort to stupid stuff such as self harming or committing suicide, trust me you'll definitely regret it. Lastly, I believe in you and if you ever need someone, drop me a message in my ask.fm, i'll be more than happy to share your sorrows with you and talk to you. You're amazingly beautiful)